hrm that might be the beginning of my disenchantment

need to get on with my life and stop dwelling and i intent to do that, two weeks to keep it fresh and funckey than home for abit then back here to start a new yr of joy lots to sort including my yr in china xxx

an unanalysed life is a life not worth living

is confused

confused about life, i thought i understood people pretty well but i guess i dnt, i'm constantly guessing what will happen next, wether i'l be stood alone or not

Trust

To trust ones self is probably the biggest gift u can give ur self.

DADS

are very childish, ooooo its a sad day wen u realise that u have ur own head screwed on tighter than ur dads, im sharing a treat with u, why are u acting so ungreatfull, their are plenty of people that i could of invited that would have made me feel like i was truely sharing a gift. Three yrs of my time... omg fml cba

the time of ur life

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

bye my beautiful friends u'l find a new path and i wnt be on it with u, not long now

concience

the feeling u cant escape sometimes when u think about the world and all the suffering while u sit in ur nice warm room, how to live ur life and be a good person, what is a good person? how can i become one? y is my blog filled with so many questions that can never be answered and y do i waste my time on these questions? because i care thats y

ponder land

more random pondering's for u... what would you do in a battle royal situation? kill or be killed?hunt people out or wait for them to come to u? commit suicide? make friends? try and escape?

How would you feel if u came out alive after killing? i guess thats the true question, if you could live with ur self then it would be ok if not then u might as well die

I dnt believe we go any where wen we die, the thing that keeps are spirit or consciousness alive is the body and when that dies our thoughts die with it. In a way we'r still around cause we'l biodegrade and become nutrients for things but thats it. It docent make me sad just more determined to live life. I dnt feel upset thinking my grandad isnt looking down on me cause i remember what he was when he was alive and how i think he would have felt about me and my choices.

He always said he wanted his girls to get an education and to go to university, here i am :-D

the beauty of death

I saw a dead bumble bee today, it was big and fluffy and puffed up, beautiful, am i in danger of sounding like a goth? i wanted to keep it

On another note, how can i trust u? uve already let me down, y do u mess with my head so, tell me what u want from me, i should just stay me for now i guess

awesomeness skating today, felt like a cool bean :)