Ur one of the only people that i cnt read! if ur around then i try not to get with any one else unless uve pissed me right off by turning me down. like what just happened now, the thing is the mixed signals, i dnt even know if u know that ur giving them but u r something chronic like! CAN U PLEASE JUST DESIDE WETHER U WANT ME OR NOT AND STOP TOYING WITH MY HEART IF YOU DONT, cause u know what id like to just be friends with u if thats what u want. but u tease me that it could be more ur guna distroy my insides AGAIN! fucking again!

update of monotonous proportions

SO i got the fucking job, been busy first shifts have gone swimmingly with little mistakes, told em i could do it with me eyes closed. And whats more is i think they actually like me :)

It didn't work out with the guy i was seeing. It was nothing major, i didnt think we got along very well. I just couldn't take his negativity and generally found that i couldn't have a laugh with him. I couldn't cook for him, which is important to me, it makes me feel good to have someone enjoy my food and he just wouldn't. Also our conversations always centred around him, id quiz him about how he was and he wouldn't take the same interest in the subjects i bought up. So yea lots of little things kinda added up. I know it was the right thing to do and i don't regret it at all, just a shame that i have to be single again.

Things are slowly getting sorted ready for the uni year to start still got alot to do but no where near as much as i did have

Payday is finally in sight, cept i think they may have fucked it up abit. I love my friends and i know im guna have a good, difficult year full of challenges that will shape me as a person.

I wrote my life story done, well most of it, i wonder what to do with it, as far as im concerned its written well and it would be nice to have an opinion on it but at the same time having some one know about all of that would be pretty hard.

ugh i feel sick

theres something inside me that pulls beneithe the surface

no spel checker on this PC so deal

the glimmer of hope wen u get a job interview is horrible wen its squished with no responce after. The problem with the interviews that test ur personality to c if it would match urs is that u take it personally wen they dnt want u. Im a cool person :( and whats more i cn do the jobs im applying for with me eyes sewn fucking shut!

so much wering around in my head, old things new things, dnt want to spend the evning alone in an emty house but cnt think of what else to do, watch a film and zone out

u make me nurvose so i really cnt think

Ok theres no spell checker on this computer...

breath breath breath

so much to do so much to sort i hate upheavel want to settel, almost ther...