my brain has turned to mush

like full on mush. Working in my new job numbs ur brain so much u get stuck in patterns of: Hello, Holly speaking how can i help? processes after processes u turn in to a zombie following protocol and its only been 4 days! i need suming to break it up abit some fun times in the middle where thers nothing else to think about except for the good things at that moment i havent got any of that. My mind keeps wondering to paper work double and triple checking procedures things i did wrong. Now u understand y i go out even wen the work schedules full on. I'l go crazy i even dream about it.