The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love.

Grans

U took me to grans today but i didnt realise and u didnt realise that i couldnt cope with this, i must be so suffocating that every ones gone out with out me

i ask you to come out with me yesterday u said no, now ur out, out of the blue, unplanned, but not with me

im sat here on my own completely trapped

I really am stuck on my arse

I never imagied life could be this bad again, i mean highschool was so bad that i wonder how i made it though, when i look back on these months i will wonder the same cause its so bad.

I want to be alone but i want you here

I want to these feelings to stop but i cnt seem to send them away

I feel like im not an amazing person because i cnt cope that i should be just getting on with it

il go numb if i can cause that is all i cn think of even though i know this approach distroys everything in its path, no relationship can survive numb holly

If He Blows Hot and Cold

If you are in love with a man that blows hot and cold, girl I feel for you. We have all been there. You have this chemistry with a man, it feels returned. Some days are just amazing. Others you don't even know if he will call or not. Worse, you wonder if you don't call him, would you even hear from him or not? It's a emotional roller coaster that is for sure.

Why do men blow hot and cold? Is he moody? Is it that he loves you but he just hasn't realized it yet. This is what I see a lot. Women staying with this up and down man hoping he will realize that one day he loves her and begins to stop the nonsense back and forth stuff. Many women even attempt to talk to their man about it. Oh this is only going to make it worse, don't talk about it. Men respond to distance, not words.

If you find yourself saying "but it was so great last time we were together, how can he just shut me out like that" you have one of those men that go from cold to hot. If you find yourself saying "but I love him", you have even bigger troubles. A man that changes temperatures is not a man in love. A man in love would not dream of putting you through that emotional push pull. If he is falling in love, you won't be left wondering why he disappeared.

He could be a commitment phobic, he could be emotionally unavailable, but the fact remains, he is what he is, not present in your life like you wished he would be. It's the hot times that keep you holding on. You think if he could just be like this all the time. If he could just see how much I love him, if this, if that.

The fact of the matter is being in love with a man like this is emotionally exhausting. You hold onto how it was in the beginning and ignore how it is now. Fairy dust will not just sprinkle from the sky and transform the hot and cold man into a great partner. Nothing will transform these men into great partners. You are in love with his potential and focused on what could or should be and not what is.

If he was going to become a great partner, he would have already done so. Men don't just wake up one day more interested in you or all of a sudden in love. Men to fall in love have to think about you. A hot and cold man doesn't spend a lot of time thinking about you. Here is a hard truth about these men. His attraction for you is not that strong.

More times than not, men that blow hot and cold may not see you as his dream girl. A man would never blow hot and cold to his dream girl. He might lose her. If he blows hot and cold, you could be just an option for now until someone else comes along. A man who is a good partner would not do this to a woman he truly cares about. He would not lead her on and then disappear for days. He wouldn't call some days and go silent for others.

Some hot and cold men stay around for a long time before they disappear. I have seen men blow hot and cold for one woman and turn around and blow hot all the time for another woman. Are you the fall girl here or his dream girl?

what would be the perfect relationship then?

I spen so much time thinking this relationship isnt rite, well what would be rite for me then? what do i want if i could have it?

I want a team member
A friend
Some one I can be silly with
Some one who listens to my fears and takes them seriously
Some one with a sense of adventure
Some one who respects my choices and opinion and stands by me for them
Some one who puts me above every thing else
Who values family and makes me part of it

y does it feel like you just dont wanna do anything with me any more

This week has been a shit week to be honest. not only did I loose my confidence in being able to perform in a professional environment, and have a few brake downs, Chewys become almost completely closed off and I dont think he even realizes it.

HE is fed up of me being around I dont care what he says. Y else would he be about his friends 24/7 and everything I wanna do or that im excited about he either shits on changes his mind completely and docent go. Hes stopped being attentive as well, I go up to him for attention and he is always the first to brake away and sum times he even looks put out by it. What am I supposed to do about that except for talk to him about it. Sept I already have and it changed nothing.

LOST

Im completly lost, what shall i do with myself?

I have no job, no home, no fixed address, no money, plenty of great friends but I still drift at the seems.

Me and the man are doing well, seems we kinda reached some level of understanding I guess, a middle ground we can both exist on.

So what do I do now? I went to an interview in Leeds, moving to Leeds and starting over scares me. Staying in Middlesbrough forever scares me, moving permanently back to MK scares me.

Do i get a job in Marketing or just get a job in general. Arnt I to old for this... im 24!

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made

I've learned to let go
Come on

Here's a middle finger
Coming straight from oca-l-a
I appreciate your judgement
it's proved that I can't trust a word you say
those must be some pair of binoculars
that you see every move I make
so I'll never be a liar
but you'll always be two-faced

You'll get what's coming to you
You're blinded by your instincts
I'm not your fucking game
I'm not so easily beat

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll rip that scandalous bitch in two
We'll bring the noise

Try to pretend that I never even knew your name
'cause everything you are disgusts me
(Too bad I can't turn back time)
So I wouldn't be here
what I'd give for you to disappear
so tell me girly how's your edge?

You've got nothing better to do
I know why you can't see straight
I thought you were better than this
but you're just like everyone else

I'm looking down at this mess that you've made
and I can't believe that I stayed
So unhappy for so long
Where did I go wrong?
I've got to get out of this
my hand is on the handle
We're leaving everything behind
Goodbye for a lifetime

I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends
I'll make my stand
right here with my friends

Get low
Now I know who my friends are
I'm never coming home